I have this very useful plugin that tells me where my visitors come from, how they got here, how long they’re on my site, and all that good stuff. I’ve found some pretty interesting search terms, and pages that have linked to my site. Creepy much…

So this weekend has been a pretty eventful weekend if I say so myself… Lets see if I can remember everything.

FRIDAY: Val and I met up and went to the Cheesecake Factory for dinner, which is always very mellow and pleasant. After that we drove to Nick’s apartment, had a few drinks and saw The House Bunny. It was my second time seeing it, but it was much more enjoyable this time around. After the movie, we ended up going back to the apartment, and just having drinks for the rest of the night. It was pretty mellow, and nice. We ended up staying up till around 3 in the morning. Val had work at 7, I had work at 6. We went to sleep for a few hours, but I decided to call out because I knew I wasn’t going to feel well in the morning. Responsible much? I don’t need to hear it. 

SATURDAY: Well after coming home from the night before at 6AM, I had every intention to pass the fuck out as soon as I got home. So I did. I don’t even know what time I woke up later on that day, but I didn’t really do much except just relax, which was really nice again.

SUNDAY/MONDAY: A few close friends met up at the Cheesecake Factory to celebrate Valerie’s 21st birthday. Our friend Franklin was our server, and was able to get the ones under 21 drinks, which was nice of him. I had two Georgia Peach drinks, and they were bomb! We ended up staying there for a few hours, and leaving at around 11:30? We all headed out to Nick’s for drinks again, and to celebrate Val’s 21st. 

It was nice hanging out with everyone, and just being friends. But of course, drama always has it’s way of ruining the night, and it made me realize something.

I know only I can control the situations I put myself into, and only I can control who I want into my life. Only me. I hate dealing with drama, I hate awkward moments, I just hate it. It even sounds weird to me because everyone should know how much I use to love drama, and how I use to start it, all the time. A part of me has grown up, and I can see this now. I just cannot deal with friends screwing friends over.

I also realize, that since I am pretty mellow and not starting drama, I see a lot of two faced behavior. It’s so disgusting. Sometimes I don’t even want to know some people that I’ve grown to know, because when you first meet them you think they’re completely different, but once you get to know them, their true colors shine, and they’re ugly. (Yes, I’m talking about you.)

It’s a shame, everyone out here is in it for themselves. In a few years, sadly — nobody is going to give a shit. Sad, but true.

I’m just really over the scene, and all the retarded drama filled queens who are so into it. I need SUBSTANCE, I need REAL people, who actually care about others, and not only themselves. We live in such a shitty society right now, it’s sad.

MOVING ON. I had a very, interesting experiance at the Ralphs in Aliso Viejo last night. All I know, is that the manager, Amanda (if that was even her real name), hasn’t heard the last of me yet. Their is NO way in hell that I will EVER be disrespected in front of my friends, and other people, for making a mistake. Just because I’m overall a nice person, do not cross my limits, and disrespect me, and think that I wont do anything about it — Because I will. I don’t really feel like writing it all down since I’ve already written to much tonight, but all I can say is this white trash bitch will be very lucky if she has a job when I am done talking with the “big guys”.

Jay-

So I had my shoot today with Ashliey and Devin, and the theme was Glamour Trash. It was originally going to feature Carolyn and Jenni, but plans didn’t really work out due to lack of communication, so in the end they weren’t up to do it. But the day had to go on, and I think we had a pretty successful shoot.

We wanted to shoot in a pretty dead, and bland environment to really stick them out, and in-your-face type of attitude, displaying their elegant dresses. Our location today was at one of my old favorite spots I used to go to back in High School, Jesus Tree. Oh the memories.. 

Anyways, here are a few examples, and the rest are on my Flickr page. Feedback is appreciated!

So last night was probly one of the funniest nights I’ve had in a long time, I can honestly say that I enjoyed myself, but in a different way. It felt like old times, thats for sure, and that feeling is something that I miss quite often. 

I ended up going over to this girl Natasha’s house and hung out with her, Vanessa, Gia, Patrick, Sara, and a few other people. It was all sorts of fun. I was on a good one if I say so myself. After that we all went to Denny’s around 3, and everything about that night was just hilarious.

Man, I miss my youth. ;D

I was suppose to have a shoot meet today with Kelsey, but I am way to hungover, tired, and just not in the mood to do anything. Although, I am about to go over to the gym to work out what I might’ve gained last night, lol. Not to mention I have work today for inventory. 4 - ?. It’s pretty much whenever the whole store gets done.

Myles and I had a little test shoot yesterday for something we’re working on for the future, we did very little planning, and it was all pretty much done when we first got to the area so he can get a “feel” for the camera. Here are a few examples, and I’ll post the link to the set at the end of the entry.

You can view the rest of the set here. Comments are much appreciated. =)

OH! And I was just offered to do a wedding around May! How awesome is that? 

It’s been awhile since I’ve hung out with Kelsey. It was nice to catch up, have lunch, and just hangout with her for a bit today. We have so many exciting ideas that we want to do. We had a little test run today as well, we didn’t really know what to do, but we just worked with a few things at her house.

I even hung out with one of my old friends, Ryan. I thought it would be awkward because of the shit that has happened in the past, and all that shady stuff, but surprisingly it was good to hangout. I didn’t really care to talk to him, but I really shouldn’t let past things get in the way of the future. I ended up thinking about the good times we all had as friends, and I cherish those things the most. I am too forgiving, but I haven’t been all that respectful towards him, so it’s safe to say their is no enemy in the situation we had. 

I finally know what I’m missing in my life. I’ve been so confused about so much stuff lately, but after today I’m starting to see clearly again. I don’t know how else to explain it, but maybe I over-analyzed it, but I just know I was so much happier before I started shutting everyone out of my life because I was scared, insecure, and mentally unstable. I’m going to go about things differently now with how I treat older friends, because after today I do feel that people can change, for the better. It got me thinking when Ryan was all “I fucking miss you Jay” I haven’t heard that in a long time, from someone other than Rebecca. We started to talk about all the old memories… Angels and Airwaves, hot boxing the box, etc. It was nice. Even to this day, I still wish my life was as fun as it was back in 2006, but then again at the same time I know I would still be doing the same bad shit, and I wouldn’t be going anywhere.

Everything happens for a reason, although it may not always be for the best, it does help shape and mold your character to grow as a person.

Anyways, here are some pictures that I took with Kelsey today. You can view the rest on my Flickr page.

This shoot wasn’t anything really serious, we just wanted to do a test run so she could work with the camera a bit before we do our big shoot in LA. Comments are appreciated.

I was bored. & Thank God for me losing weight, I am now at a steady 171-172. I hope to make my goal of 160 by next month. It’s possible.